Today has been one of the most difficult days of my life. It seems as though every little thing is bringing me to tears, sad or not. I went into work for a few hours, unintentionally, a few of my classes were canceled and I needed to pick up my paycheck, and I figured I might as well clock-in and make a bit of cash. I think it helped to simply be around friends and laugh and talk to people who truly understand what it is I'm going through.
What has been the most difficult has been coming home from the clinic and not having her with me. I expect to be greeted with her wagging tail and big grin. I've compared the silence in my home and Midnight's absence to someone who has a limb amputated. I've always heard that amputees experience a phantom leg or hand where there is no limb, and in the early morning when I'm searching for her with my foot at the top of the stairs to make sure I won't step on her and then slowly realize....she's not there. Those little things are what are slowly breaking my heart. Another example is while at work we were signing up to get our dogs the canine influenza vaccine and I thought to myself.."do I need this? $17?" and then realized that I don't have a dog to vaccinate.
This weekend boyfriend and I are going to go up to Brasstown Bald to get away and plus, it's supposed to be really pretty (NO RAIN!!!) and the leaves are now beginning to change so it should be nice. I'm also hoping to hang out with some girlfriend's on Saturday night and hopefully take my mind off of things.
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Today's critter of the day is:
MOLLY!!!
Molly is a year and a half and I found her online at the Cape Cod Animal Care and Adoption Center in Boston, MA. I personally have a HUGE thing for black and white kitties but the two things I adore about Molly are her big gold eyes and the little black smudge right below her nose.
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